In less than 2 years I'll have a real life job (maybe), or at least know what I'm doing with my life (hopefully).
weird.
I am currently living in a house with 6 other girls, which I'll admit I was pretty nervous about. I'm completely loving it though. The year has gotten off to a pretty good start, but I'm more anxious than anything.
It's amazing what a complete unknown my life is in right now. When you allow God to be completely in control of every single path in your life and let Him guide it as well as trust Him to do so, the excitement and expectancy you are able to live you life in is crazy. I think that's what I'm feeling right now. But maybe I should be more proactive. I feel like I'm waiting on a breakthrough, I'm waiting for God to reveal whatever it is I'm supposed to do next. And I'm excited but in case you know me, patience is not one of my strong suits. Like I told my roommate the other day, you can't expect God to just give you *said personality trait aka patience* unless he puts you in a situation to develop *said personality trait*.
I've loved getting to spend so much time with these women who I live with and getting to watch them grow. Not only am I totally opposite from who I was freshman year, but they are as well. They're even different than they were a year ago.
A year can change a lot. Six months can change a lot. Even a week can change a lot.
I'm growing.
I'm moving forward from this summer.
When I came to Baylor this year I was wallowing in how terrible my summer was and having no where to go but up. I didn't want to be a Debby Downer but I needed to vent. I was just waiting patiently for someone to just say "hey, tell me what's going on with you." But no one did.
That's when God showed up. Because He was the one who said it. After laying face down on the ground in my room and venting to Jesus about EVERYTHING in my life, I haven't turned back to wallow in those things again. He took it all, just like that. No human can do that. No one is capable. He literally took it all and hasn't put it on me again, because He DELIGHTS in relieving me of my pain. And that is INCREDIBLE. Because I have yet to meet a parent, friend, boy, teacher, etc. who not only CAN take away all my pain but ENJOYS every single bit of it.
The Lord is my portion and He gives me joy so extravagant that I will not much remember the days of my life. (Ecc. 5:20) PRAISE THE LORD
